Saturday, October 31, 2009

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!! you can see my sailor hat right?! Hope everyone has/had a good night!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I don't know....

So I don't know what's different about today than yesterday but all of the sudden I've started thinking a lot. I started thinking about the past year and how things have been going, patterns and correlations to my mood and overall demeanor. I've come to the conclusion that my general mood depends on whether or not I'm talking to/in pursuit of someone. That's not good. I don't know if I'm just exaggerating a portion of the truth, or if it's the whole.

I don't know. I'm just confused right now, and I'm trying to sort some things out in my head and it's not working. I don't want to be codependent. I want to be independent and happy that I have someone there, but not happy only because they are there. Ugh. I might just be being dramatic, I don't know. I just don't know. I don't like not knowing. :/

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


This past week, has easily been one of the best weeks of my life. I haven't done anything special, or witnessed anything astounding. I've just been extraordinarily happy.

You can probably guess why. As I get to know mike I just seem to like him more and more. Even if this didn't work out for whatever reason, the way I've felt this past week makes it worth it.

Fireflies by Owl City, such a great song.

Thursday, October 15, 2009


So I'm excited about a few things right now.

1.) I quit my job
Quite possibly one of the best decisions I've made in a while. I just couldn't handle all the hours and while I don't like using this word regularly, my managers are cunts. In every sense of the word, easily some of the worst managers I have come across in my short life. Well its over now, the parental units understand and I now have to time to, you know... sleep.

2.) I'm going to the annual NYU Medical School Formal/Prom/Ball
Easily one of the coolest things I will ever do as an undergrad. I am kind of in love with the person who is taking me lol. It's at Centrale, if any of you know where that is. I get to dress up (bought my first suit for it), open bar, dinner, dancing and then after I am going to the grand opening of a new gay bar because my friend knows a club promoter and he got us on "the list" lol. It's going to be a great night. Then the next day, my date and I are going to see "Where the Wild Things are" movie. That was my favorite book circa 1992 when I was about 3 years old. I knew the book by heart. SO pumped.

3.) My first GAY HALLOWEEN!
Although I rather despise the holiday itself, I am participating in every single aspect of the holiday that I find rather distasteful. Can't knock something 'til you try it right? So I am. I'm being a sailor lol. Obvi a slutty one. Judge me all you want, it's an experience. Plus there really isn't another day out of the year where you can be a complete slut and have people only mildly judge you for it :D.

4.) True crackberry addict...
I know it's sad but I love these phones, I'm a fan of technology in general that's why I'm in the concentration that I am. The new BBM is pretty sick, it's like a fully functioning AIM for blackberrys (blackberries?). I also am pretty intrigued by the bar code function, although I don't exactly what it does. I would love to know how to use it lol. So if one of you know what it does/how you use it PLEASE let me know! I am THAT person, I've come to terms with it. :)

As far as my YouTube goes, I've kind of gotten away from it a little bit. I don't know why exactly, I just don't have the interest to make videos the way I used to. I don't know if it's because I have found a lot of users that are doing a lot of stuff I wanted to do or have done (like couver87). He has a pretty good channel. I don't agree with everything he says, but he seems to have the viewers at heart so that's always good. I mean, he doesn't need my approval, he has a large following and is partnered.

OK, I'm getting off track. A few final thoughts. I don't friend people on facebook I don't know. I have my YouTube, twitter and blog for you guys to follow me on. I apologize of that's not what you want to hear but facebook is off limits. I have also posted my email in case anyone wanted to get in touch with me about something on my blog. Again, that's even another way to contact me so no facebook or iChat... sorry guys.

I think that's all for now. I'll probs post on my way home from NY, so look for a post on Saturday! Bye gurrl bye.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

oh hayyy

So since NY my life has been extraordinarily busy. I'm getting schedule 5 or 6 shifts a week at Chang's at 6 hours per shifts, so... ummm... I'm practically working FULL TIME. I'm just like WTF Chang's?! Really?! I am a full time student. I have barely been sleeping, but I need the money. I somehow was able to go to DC this past weekend. It was so much fun, but I was just exhausted and was ready to go home by 2 A.M. Talk about a buzz kill.

This has honestly been my life since last Thursday til the end of my weekend (I love complaining, esp when I have a reason to):

Thursday: Class 9 to 1030, libs until 130, class 130 to 230, libs until 4, back to the apt to get ready for work, work 5 to 1230, libs 1 to 3.

Friday: Class 840 to 10, libs 10 to 11, class 11 to 1, libs 1 to 430, work 5 to 12, sleep.

Saturday: libs 8 to 10, work 1030 to 330, get to DC by 430 out until 4

Sunday: wake up at 10 get ready to check out of room, back to baltimore by 230, work in the apt until 330, work 4 to 11, finish lab and go to bed by 1 exhausted. I might need to quit my job. I can't keep doing this lol. At some point its not gonna be worth the money.

Somehow I'm doing well in all my classes and working hard to stay on top of my work. Which I am happy about. I get to go to NY again next weekend to go to the NYU med school annual formal :D. Back to work, ttys.