Thursday, July 8, 2010

Living my life.

For some reason people think that there is only one way to "live" life.  You know the person that travels, goes hiking, eats out at a different small should-be-more-famous-than-it-is restaurant, doesn't seem to have a care in the world... its a stereotype.  I don't think I need to explain further.  For a long time, I thought that because I wasn't this person that I wasn't living life.  Fuck that lol.  Yes, those people are living a great life, and I'm sure it makes them happy.  Does it make me happy? HELL NO.  I would get bored with the constant lack of direction and growth.  I need to learn, plan, and have daily routine with the occasional bit of spontaneity.  My life is about moving forward.

I sometimes worry that I get lost in this, and that I live for the future too much.  This, I want to change.  HOWEVER, I do not feel that my way of living life is any more less effective or acceptable (whatever word makes sense to you here).  I feel like I have a great balance in my life.  All these people may be living their lives now, but what are they going to do after graduation when they have a shitty degree with a less than stellar GPA.  I know what I'm gonna do, hell I'm looking for jobs already.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, live life.  But live it the way that makes you happy.  Screw everyone else who thinks your going to regret any sacrifices you make now.  You most likely make them nervous because they are starting to realize they are "living" life a little bit too much.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

HELLLOOOOOO

OOOmmmmggg I've been super busy again lol.  I just finished why my senior lab.  It went really well, just a lot of work.  Throughout all the work that I had to do, I spent the rest of my free time getting my life together.  LIKE REALLY TOGETHER.  What does this entail? None of your bizzzz.  Sorry, too personal for the blogosphere.

Like I said, I've been working to get my life in a really really good place, even better than before.  This means taking a lot more time for myself.  I spend a lot of times on helping other people with their lives and tend to ignore my own.  This is fine in moderation, because its something that I really enjoy doing, but you can have too much of a good thing.  So I started being a little bit more selfish.  This doesn't mean hogging my food, alcohol, etc aka not sharing anything.  I mean like on nights where people may want me to go out, just staying in and spending time with myself.  Let's face it, other people can come and go, but you ain't goin' nowehre.  We are stuck with dealing with ourselves our entire life.  Better get used to it lol.  So that's what I'm doing.  I'm getting to know myself all over again.  It's fun!

One of my favorite me things to do is go to hot yoga by myself.  I tend to switch up between the 4 locations and try to go on random days as to not get the same instructors.  This way things stay kind of anonymous, know what I mean?  It really is so much more relaxing to know it's just you.

Another thing I've gotten over is always needing my phone.  My blackberry was one with me before.  I couldn't go anywhere without it and if I did it was all I could think about.  I like the idea of having a cell phone, but I don't want to be one of those people who constantly turns to their phone every time they are in an awkward social situation.  Currently, I am that person, but I'm working on it okay! LOL.  It's so liberating!!!  

I'm also doing away with all my ridiculous timelines and expectations for myself.  I don't need a boyfriend by any specific time or for any duration.  I don't need to do a blog every week because people expect me to.  Clearly, there are some things that require time lines, but I'm just saying that the unnecessary ones are being plucked from my life one at a time.

These are the ones I decided on for now.  This is quite a bit of work to do, and I'm excited to see myself change.  I really think taking small steps and realizing how to become a better person is important.  One of my friends told me "If you think about it, you are always in a state of growth or decay.  There isn't any flatline."  If I can help it, I'm gonna be on a constant growth as long as I can :).  The best and most effective way to do that is to take small steps and work your way up.  I feel like a new person already :D!